Weltschmerz in a Humdrum Day
I am having some “writer’s block”. Since Saturday, I left two post drafts, unfinished prayer page for Kriztin and picture slide for Carl. I feel a little drained after Carl’s third birthday last Friday and though there’s no big party, just simple dinner with the family and some neighbors, I did all the preparations and some cooking. Plus, the weather is not so good this weekend. There’s a storm, a downer that added to my being a bit lethargic. This morning, the classes are suspended because of the storm named Mina, so I kept myself busy with the kids. With their shrieking, fighting, and all that, I just couldn’t focus on writing a post, which I usually do after my 2 older kids left for school.
In between all my chores for the day, there are lots of things trailing in my mind - ideas that I think are good to write about (and yet couldn’t start writing), some worries, job prospects, future plans and other life uncertainties. I feel this is a humdrum day. Empty. Dull. Then while preparing our dinner, I got an SMS from my sister Len. Thinking it’s just one of those forwarded messages, I didn’t bother reading the whole message. Good thing, I didn’t erase it coz when I finally read it after dinner, I thought this is the dose I needed to lift up my dampened spirit!
We have some days when we question our existence, our worth, our significance, right? We brew a storm inside us. Hence, we just create loads of apprehensions from our doubts and fear for the future. Frustrating. Like what I am having today, my mind just got tired of thinking about many pressures and other uncertainties, worrying about them even before they happen (or not) — eventually forgetting that God is the greatest planner and always in control! I am not really a worrier, but sometimes I couldn’t escape this bug. Weltschmerz! Now I understand why this German word for sentimental sadness is hard to pronounce (’velt-?shmerts) and spell - it’s synonymous to pessimism, which is a no-no in having a happy life, right?
At some points in our lives we sometimes are in the look out for some meaning and what really our purpose in life is. I think we shouldn’t look any further. The answer may just be unnoticed. Like me, I almost overlooked it and good thing I checked my SMS. I realized there is more to my life coz He created me to have my own purpose! Well, I hope having this site is one of those? 
Funny, but I hope so, really.hehe.
Cheers! Here’s the SMS I got from my sis and hope you get the message, too!
Your worth is not for who you are,
Not even for what you have, But for what God
Has made of you and what others
Have become because of you….
(P.S. That’s why I have grown to love blogging and is now becoming a passion. It has become my vent, a therapy, some sort of a friend. I can write all the things I wanted to say and feel ’til I fully contemplated on all my life concerns and start feeling good. Just like now. I am now smiling and ready to write another post. I first thought I couldn’t finish this one tonight, but here I am now doing the postscripts. If there’s such thing as a “downer”, I hope this post could be your “upner”. Just pardon me for the bad humour.hehe. Good day everyone! )
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you write so well… i hope i can write as good as you…
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funny but I was reading your blog yesterday and how I wished I could write as polished like you.
btw, thanks! I should credit those english subjects in highschool and our two journalism subjects.hehe.
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Sounds like pareho tayo ngayon ah. Walastik may german ka pa und auch noch sehr tiefgrundig :). Ang galingggg.
Happy Sunday!!!
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Thanks ms. beng, hehe, salamat din kay pareng thesaurus! at least 2 na alam kong german, volkswagen and Weltschmerz. ;D
di ko na tuloy alam sinabi mo.hehe, maresearch nga ……..
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