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Yesterday, January 30th, is the fourth death anniversary of my dear mother, ALICIA. It’s been four years, the grief is lesser now and of course the pain passes, but surely our love for her remains. For my Nanay, I know you’re happy wherever you are, this is for you:

ODE TO MY NANAY

Life continues but still empty
I am now home but
you’re not here anymore.

I still miss your voice
and your sunny laughter
I still search your face amongst the crowd.

I am longing for your wings
You left me in void
Which I can never fill up.

Wishing I was with you
During your dying hours
And said my last goodbye.

But I was not able to show
And say how much I love you
For the last time.

My heart is still broken
Coz I was not there
To take care of you.

I am still in pain
‘Coz I didn’t see your pain
Not even once.

My tears keep on falling
‘Coz I didn’t cry enough
‘Coz I didn’t mourn enough.

I saw you in my dreams
You are so beautiful and happy
I am at peace with that somehow.

I LOVE YOU NANAY
These words I failed to say
I ‘ll just blow kisses for you to the wind.

Here is your daughter
Longing for your embrace
Loving you forever.

I am blogging for almost 6 months now. I could say I am a late bloomer because I have seen blogs running since 2006. Of course, my blog’s main purpose is to spread beauty and happiness in life, and overcoming lots of odds. I always believe that we should live life to the fullest, and make the most out of it - even with all the challenges we encounter that I think “spice up” life more. There are lots of odds, but we shouldn’t let these define our lives, but rather use them as learning tools in dealing with our lives better.

Blogging is an opportunity to express yourself, and I am now enjoying it, plus the fact that I am discovering other great blogs and bloggers everyday. (more…)